Forward

The difficult thing seems to be getting started, and then moving forward. Once I find my stride I don't struggle as much. 

A routine is necessary. Elimination of crutches, along with strict oversight of some kind of reward system (perhaps including Coca Cola). I'm trying to re-create the circumstances of my most creative years (14 through 17), where my anxiety was heightened but solved with real-world engagement and action through words and websites. 

That, then, is what I'm trying to achieve again. I would rather fail trying to achieve that goal than succeed through more traditional means. 

So, let's continue on.